LOST

Mood : LOST

Opportunities dont come easily. If at all they come, we don't utilize it in the right way...And if we utilize it in right way, You might or not might get the

recognition...And If you get the recognition, you are not rewarded for the recognition...

I am lost.

Today, I came to office @ 9. I don't know what I am supposed to do.. Because I had no work , perhaps, same with other people as well...Kept on checking the

mails and waiting for some one to call me for coffee.. Finally , went for coffee and discussed some useless stuffs...Perhaps, pshycologically, when You speak

out (useless or useful), whatever, we will feel good, though it was useless...

Incidentally(Accident in the mind)There came the opportunity of my life. I got a phone call @ around 10 am , and the call was from one of my friend asking to

particpate in a Dance Reality Show. First reaction, I am excited , second reaction, confused about my job, third reaction , i was excited about the

publicity(though selfish but obviously yes, as everybody will have) and lot of misc reactions...ok..Enough of reactions, I thought its time to respond..

Again thoughts starting to flow from so many directions, that Am I getting deviated from my responsibilities(job) or am I not giving importance to my

passion(Dance)??? Yeah,people used to tell that work is worship..perhaps, I felt why don't you take this, as a challenge to manage your job and your passion,

as I am doing now.

Lot of practical difficulties and people are put into some constraints when it comes to job + Passion......Can't help it..That's corporate life..

But, I really don't want to miss the opportunity as it is a big reality show to be a participant...what the F___? What should I do now?????

I was asked to decide on my participation tonight and confirm the same so, that the next formalities steps can be processed....

@2 pm - I made up my mind...Let me decide..Think think!!!! Job + dance?? job + dance?? job!!! + Dance!!!...arrrgg...job,yeah, so many responsibilites

ahead..but , Am i killing my passion????hmmm..or my work life will get disturbed if I participate in the reality shows?? think think!!!!!!!! Tought decision

to be made..

The opportunity - will it knock my door again?? Oops, perhaps, might be yes or no...but, why not take up the opportunity which is coming to your doorstep

now...and manage your job as well...Challenging??? but tough!!

ok.Then I made my mind to think again...yeah, JOB is the first priority.becoz, there are people dependent on me. perhaps, none of them are dependent on me

when it comes to dance it makes only me happy...

Considering so many facts, I called my friend @ 6 pm and told that I am losing a big opportunity of my life..and practically it is not feasible..I am

sorry..I give priority to my work than my passion..(Though not from my heart and my mind made me to tell that sentence....)I am still lost and moving on with

my life, with work as my first priority....

In my next blog, i will try to explain whether the decision is right??

Hope everybody in their life faced the same situation, when it comes to decision making..and I have heard people saying, If I would have taken the IIT offer

letter at the age of 30, I would have been in a good position in my life...

And I faced the same situation when I have to choose the offer letters that I had during my college days, that which company I shoud choose...And I feel I

have made the right choice..

I know some people , who are married used to think that, "should I stay alone with my wife or joint family stuffs?? "Tough and very sensitive decisions to be

made here..."

Ok..enough of confusions..Enough of regrets and no more regrets, move on with life and take life, as it comes!!!

I believe that the final decision is right... some how I feel, I am lost today and also feel that my decision is right!!!(Still I am LOST)!!!

4 point some one!!

Today morning was as usual as ever before, and The thing which was un usual was my fourth sem BITS classes started today... I would not say that I was really

excited, rather I was very curious to find out how will the professors be..

My interest in life is to meet different people in life....So happened to meet 4 different people in life today...Here we go, The first character,

First Professor - Have you seen 3 - Idiots?? - The first thing that might come in our mind, when you say abt the college life in the movie is "VIRUS"

professor..

Looks can be deceptive..I happened to reach the class room @ 8.56 a.m and Mr.VIRUS was well prepared for his lecture and ready to welcome all the students

rather than we welcoming the professor to the class.

He came to teach us "Networking"... I was completely surprised when he started the lecture because he was the exact opposite of the VIRUS lecturer in

3-Idiots..Perfect example of mis-conception(Happens!!). Physically the guy is old, must be around more than 60. mentally, was very youthful.

One of the toughest things that professors used to find it hard, is that, to gain the attention of the students..

I am glad that the anti-VIRUS was able to do so..HATS OFF!! There were lot of students (stupid and sensible)raising questions and he answered atmost all the

questions with good satisfaction to the questionaire...

I had an habit of never asking questions during my class-room hours...Bacause, there are 2 reasons.. First thing, I will understand nothing..Or, Somethings

which I believe irrevelant be would taught to us....Bacause, in the practical life, nothing is bloody used..And everything is learnt fresh from the core in

work..

And ofcourse, every Indian should take the blame on it because of our ever argued INDIAN EDUCATION....(Oops, Lets not get into society conscious)..

Second Character:

Second Professor - Compared to the last semesters, this guy is a pakka nerd, he said Computer is his passion..Oh Alas, f_ _ k his passion..He is really mad,

and most of the computer architects looks insane.., and he also fell into the same category..

But taking comp.science as his passion, OMG, He is going to admitted in a mental hospital and himself feel like going to hell in a few days..How can he say

that!! still can't digest his words... It's equal to saying, Killing is my passion, and I don't mind if I am killed by somebody...Forget it., not a character

to be admired!!

Third Character :

Third Professor - Hard core black guy with hardly 4 strings of hair in his centre head, and lots of hair on his sides with specs, came to teach us Compiler

programs....He was in heights of sincerity because he forgot to introduce himself and directly started with his ppt's... And when he was asked doubts from

the exams structure like giving assignments, He felt like he was asked to show his porn collections, and told us that I will contact the examination head and

let you guys know..
He was so sincere , his body language and intonnations, the way he answered the questions, oofs, I think that guy is a _ _ Y...Oops...No comments..let try to

peep into the next character...

Fourth Character :

Fourth Professor - Fully tuck-in ironed shirt, cotton pant, polished shoes and ten rupee ball point pen on his pocket, came to teach us Operating Systems...
This guy seems to be a professional with his knowledge and body language. He is an engineering college prof, and as soon as he started the lecture, I felt

nostalgic memories of vivekananda coll professors.... The class started and everybody listened to the professor and as the time went,his lecture lead me to

sleep and other students too..Perhaps, he didnt give up, because, these prof are paid 3500 rs. for 2 hours of lecture...

hmmm...thinking to become a professor??? Even I am planning to take it as a side business and one of the best ways to earn money quickly and also with less

effort (depends..)

hhmmmm..too many new characters today..and everybody were unique in their own way but not everybody were impressive except the anti-VIRUS..

I saw today as an experience to see different people in life and it was great, and it had surely taught us something like, how to handle the classes to the

students,How do you carry yourself when you are going to address large number of poeple what is expected from the students and why teach something

irrelevant??, how prof are useful,useless blah, blah, blah....,

I never attended today's class with the mindset of learning something technically because it is not at all going to be useful in the real life...

Who is Next? No please!! Too much for today...tom please!!