Mood : LOST
Opportunities dont come easily. If at all they come, we don't utilize it in the right way...And if we utilize it in right way, You might or not might get the
recognition...And If you get the recognition, you are not rewarded for the recognition...
I am lost.
Today, I came to office @ 9. I don't know what I am supposed to do.. Because I had no work , perhaps, same with other people as well...Kept on checking the
mails and waiting for some one to call me for coffee.. Finally , went for coffee and discussed some useless stuffs...Perhaps, pshycologically, when You speak
out (useless or useful), whatever, we will feel good, though it was useless...
Incidentally(Accident in the mind)There came the opportunity of my life. I got a phone call @ around 10 am , and the call was from one of my friend asking to
particpate in a Dance Reality Show. First reaction, I am excited , second reaction, confused about my job, third reaction , i was excited about the
publicity(though selfish but obviously yes, as everybody will have) and lot of misc reactions...ok..Enough of reactions, I thought its time to respond..
Again thoughts starting to flow from so many directions, that Am I getting deviated from my responsibilities(job) or am I not giving importance to my
passion(Dance)??? Yeah,people used to tell that work is worship..perhaps, I felt why don't you take this, as a challenge to manage your job and your passion,
as I am doing now.
Lot of practical difficulties and people are put into some constraints when it comes to job + Passion......Can't help it..That's corporate life..
But, I really don't want to miss the opportunity as it is a big reality show to be a participant...what the F___? What should I do now?????
I was asked to decide on my participation tonight and confirm the same so, that the next formalities steps can be processed....
@2 pm - I made up my mind...Let me decide..Think think!!!! Job + dance?? job + dance?? job!!! + Dance!!!...arrrgg...job,yeah, so many responsibilites
ahead..but , Am i killing my passion????hmmm..or my work life will get disturbed if I participate in the reality shows?? think think!!!!!!!! Tought decision
to be made..
The opportunity - will it knock my door again?? Oops, perhaps, might be yes or no...but, why not take up the opportunity which is coming to your doorstep
now...and manage your job as well...Challenging??? but tough!!
ok.Then I made my mind to think again...yeah, JOB is the first priority.becoz, there are people dependent on me. perhaps, none of them are dependent on me
when it comes to dance it makes only me happy...
Considering so many facts, I called my friend @ 6 pm and told that I am losing a big opportunity of my life..and practically it is not feasible..I am
sorry..I give priority to my work than my passion..(Though not from my heart and my mind made me to tell that sentence....)I am still lost and moving on with
my life, with work as my first priority....
In my next blog, i will try to explain whether the decision is right??
Hope everybody in their life faced the same situation, when it comes to decision making..and I have heard people saying, If I would have taken the IIT offer
letter at the age of 30, I would have been in a good position in my life...
And I faced the same situation when I have to choose the offer letters that I had during my college days, that which company I shoud choose...And I feel I
have made the right choice..
I know some people , who are married used to think that, "should I stay alone with my wife or joint family stuffs?? "Tough and very sensitive decisions to be
made here..."
Ok..enough of confusions..Enough of regrets and no more regrets, move on with life and take life, as it comes!!!
I believe that the final decision is right... some how I feel, I am lost today and also feel that my decision is right!!!(Still I am LOST)!!!
